... here to oblivion ...
Why do I feel so left out again? Is it because I AM being treated that way? Or is it just because of me? shutting myself out from this sick and tiring world. I hate this environment. I just want to GET OUUUT!!! But I can’t.. I’ll be stuck within this hell of a ride for quite some time before I can finally jump out of it.. not having any other option to choose..
4 months.. will I be able to survive? Or will I give up someday and just jump out of the window to end this pain? Am I that desperate?? I have never wanted to be this way.. this is not me!! but i'm so damn tired.. it feels like everything i have ever done up till now is worthless.. i'm so freakin exhausted of trying.. so sick and tired of being shut down every single day.. so tired of being treated as if I DON"T EVEN EXIST!!!
I'm FULLY RUINED NOW!!! are you satisfied!!?? just laugh and laugh and laugh above my sufferings!!! i don't give a fcukin care anymore!! i never wanna hate.. and i don't wanna curse.. but why do you keep pushing me to do that!!?? AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
OMG.. i'm seriously insane now.. can barely think of anything normal.. it feels as if my head wants to blow out of anger!! i can't even cry nomore.. my eyes have run out of tears.. i seriously just wanna shoot my head and... that'll be the end.. isn't it?
posted by b.e.x.i.s.h @ 1:14 AM
7 Comments:
is it that bad be'? don't give up just yet. it'll proof to them that you are as their thought>> do not belong there<< just keep prayin honey. sounds theoritic but try it. it won't hurt.
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IT IS THAT BAD, nggie.. trust me.. u've never seen me this desperate, right? but this is just me.. right now.. right at this very moment.. trully reluctant to every single thing that is happening.. puuh.. sorry to be this negative..
Your English is pretty good
lol xD thx.. 1 flattering comment.. ^^
Hey..
I dont know wats d prob n ur life... but still i cld help u some ways to relax ur mind.. Why dont u take a brk fro mur regular work n tarvel to some unknown place... I guess travel is one of the best thing u can do.. or y dont u try Yoga?
i'm dying to have 1!! but i just can't.. (T_T) this work-school environment have succesfully wrecked my schedule for some happy, leisure times.. *sobs* not even for a yoga class during the weekend.. ugh.. ><"
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